Wednesday 7 Jamadil Akhir 1432 H = 11th May 2011
My cousin-in law, called at 1130 today....that his mum, whom i addressed as
Mak Lang, passed away Monday night at 1030pm.
shocked !!
Mak Lang had been diagnosed with leukemia, and had been hospitalised since
last Syawal. I didnt know that...
Early April, he called to inform that his mum (Mak Lang) had been discharged from
Hospital Ampang after being treated for about 2 months.
2 days later, on saturday i drove to Mak Lang's apartment in Sri Rampai.
spent some good time there...
she doesn't look sick at all
cheerful...as always
she made some jemput-jemput pisang (banana fritters) and kopi-O
served me... we had mother-daughter talk, full of laughter
alongwith advice
whilst there, i apologised to Mak Lang that i didn't inform her of my
hajj pilgrimage in Nov 2009... though i visited her abt a month before
my departure
i'd gone to the Immigration Dept applying for my passport
since i was in her neighbourhood, i thought i should say 'hi' to her
at that time, my status for hajj is on standby
even my parents do not know about it yet
Mak Lang
we both knew why its inappropriate for us to meet often
but i am glad, i made that visit last April
we plan to meet again, maybe in few months time
but Allah swt, has His plan
i don't regret..
i shall treasure the good times we had
the words of wisdom she shared
"mereka kaya cara mereka...
aku miskin cara aku, tak pernah meminta dari mereka"
...."they are rich, that's their life...
though i'm poor, i never ask anything from them"
"orang takut kalau tahu kita susah
kita selalu senyum, orang tak tahu kita ada masalah"
..."people have fear if they know we in difficulties...always smile
hence they thought we are fine"
Mak Lang, for a strongwill person
very humble
never show sadness
you are always fun to be with
a Mukminat, that even on hospital bed you recite the Al Quran
and also perform your solat-fardhu (mandatory) and solat-sunat (optional)
Mak Lang, may your soul rest in peace
be amongst the Good Believers
may Allah swt, The Most Merciful The Most Compassionate
forgive you
and accept you into Jannah Al Firdaus
Al Fatihah...
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
My mum and I
Mak was 32 when she gave birth to me, i'm her 7th child.
I am not close to Mak, for some reasons i knew and i do not know.
I know i love her...
some things happened to me, few years ago
makes me closer to Mak
Few weeks ago, Mak became sick...
underwent surgery...
and due to age, some complications arised
She was cared in the ICU for 3 days
and transferred to diferent wards for observations.
On one of the days there, i celebrated my birthday
i relate my birthday to her 'labour pain when she was
having me... and now, on my birthday she is very sick...
O Allah...
I am glad that i was able to care for Mak, to my best ability.
Adapting to her situation
i reminded her to always think of Allah swt and Rasulullah
i whispered to her ears on Al Quran verses..
i talked... bathed and cleaned her,
prepared her for solat,
fed,
massaged
or simply touching her hands,
stayed at hospital...long hours...
morning to evening shifts, or from night to evening...
Mak would stay awake in the middle of the night
or the wee hours
calling some names
or remembering old times..
One of the best moment was her sharing about her life..
She also mentioned many times about her late daughter-in law
(my elder bro's late wife, who passed away on 23.9.2010)..
the nicest things they shared...good moments they had...
may she rest in peace, and be accepted into Jannah..Amin
My mum is a strong person, kind-hearted, never showed any pain
a very private person...
a good servant to Allah swt with her ibadat and prayers, zikrullah
Now that i'm back to my place, i felt guilty leaving her behind
and i saw some tears on her...that sunday afternoon before i left.
nowadays when i say out "Mak"... i welled in tears..
i feel the bonding with Mak
and can't wait for the weekend to go back and
care for her
Syukran to Allah swt
The Most Compassionate
The Most Merciful
Who Listens, Who Understands, Who Feels, Who Sees
Who Answers our prayers and doa'
that Mak is recuperating well
and He gave me the strength to be with Mak
Amin...
Al Ampangi 1523hours
Wednesday 20 Rabiul Awwal 1432 H = 23 Feb 2011
I am not close to Mak, for some reasons i knew and i do not know.
I know i love her...
some things happened to me, few years ago
makes me closer to Mak
Few weeks ago, Mak became sick...
underwent surgery...
and due to age, some complications arised
She was cared in the ICU for 3 days
and transferred to diferent wards for observations.
On one of the days there, i celebrated my birthday
i relate my birthday to her 'labour pain when she was
having me... and now, on my birthday she is very sick...
O Allah...
I am glad that i was able to care for Mak, to my best ability.
Adapting to her situation
i reminded her to always think of Allah swt and Rasulullah
i whispered to her ears on Al Quran verses..
i talked... bathed and cleaned her,
prepared her for solat,
fed,
massaged
or simply touching her hands,
stayed at hospital...long hours...
morning to evening shifts, or from night to evening...
Mak would stay awake in the middle of the night
or the wee hours
calling some names
or remembering old times..
One of the best moment was her sharing about her life..
She also mentioned many times about her late daughter-in law
(my elder bro's late wife, who passed away on 23.9.2010)..
the nicest things they shared...good moments they had...
may she rest in peace, and be accepted into Jannah..Amin
My mum is a strong person, kind-hearted, never showed any pain
a very private person...
a good servant to Allah swt with her ibadat and prayers, zikrullah
Now that i'm back to my place, i felt guilty leaving her behind
and i saw some tears on her...that sunday afternoon before i left.
nowadays when i say out "Mak"... i welled in tears..
i feel the bonding with Mak
and can't wait for the weekend to go back and
care for her
Syukran to Allah swt
The Most Compassionate
The Most Merciful
Who Listens, Who Understands, Who Feels, Who Sees
Who Answers our prayers and doa'
that Mak is recuperating well
and He gave me the strength to be with Mak
Amin...
Al Ampangi 1523hours
Wednesday 20 Rabiul Awwal 1432 H = 23 Feb 2011
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
sun and son
wednesday 13Safar 1429H = 20feb 2008 @ 445pm
it happened yesterday morning...
just left home for office,
a bright morning, while driving and facing the sun
i remembered those mornings when i drove my son to school
at one point, as we were approaching his school
we'll be facing the sun
......so yesterday morning, in the morning heat and bright sun
my memories run to him
about a minute's drive, i passed by a school-field where the
boys were playing in the field for their P.E.
how not i remembered my boy
i felt so close to him...
...continued driving till i make a left turn just before the bridge
an oncoming MPV with a familiar plate-number
mine is WMX ***6, whilst the MPV's WMX ***8
it belongs to his school-mate, and we always bumped into each other
at the school's compound
what a day to start...my heart melts
i miss you, dear
miss you so much...
it happened yesterday morning...
just left home for office,
a bright morning, while driving and facing the sun
i remembered those mornings when i drove my son to school
at one point, as we were approaching his school
we'll be facing the sun
......so yesterday morning, in the morning heat and bright sun
my memories run to him
about a minute's drive, i passed by a school-field where the
boys were playing in the field for their P.E.
how not i remembered my boy
i felt so close to him...
...continued driving till i make a left turn just before the bridge
an oncoming MPV with a familiar plate-number
mine is WMX ***6, whilst the MPV's WMX ***8
it belongs to his school-mate, and we always bumped into each other
at the school's compound
what a day to start...my heart melts
i miss you, dear
miss you so much...
Friday, December 14, 2007
You are 9
friday 4Zulhijjah 1428H = 14december 2007 @ 909am
my dear son
14dec 1998, you were born.
It was 9 years ago...at 655am.
at 1200midnight, my h/p alerts me of your birthday and i softly wished
you "happy birthday, i love you so much, you are the best thing happened
in my life".
now that you are gone...
memories,,,
son, i held you in my arms for only 8years and 9months
13september 2007 = 1Ramadhan 1428H, you left me.
we'd just came back from our surau after our tarawih prayers.
so many times i dream of you...i hugged you, held you tightly, kissed and smelled,
but when i'm awake, you are not there.
it wasn't easy letting you go...it wasn't easy moving on.
my life stops there.
i still see you as an 8year old.
when you turn 9 today...
how do you look today...
what are the words will you say to me today...
where do we celebrate your birthday today...
do you have the voice that i'm used to hear...
there are so many questions running, and i don't have a clue.
i still bear some regret for the things that i couldn't fulfill
or that i delayed it.
you wanted to see the dragon dance when we were going home after
your taekwondo
i remembered saying "they haven't started, let's go home and we come back later"
at home, you had your ice-cream and sometime later you gave me a card
.........
i laughed at what was written, and taking it for granted
and whenever i see any such performance, that memory comes back.
when you asked me to take you to the "eye of malaysia", i said "later",
"next time" or "we go during school holidays" or "we go together with your sister".
doesn't my heart breaks whenever i passed by that area?
my dear son
14dec 1998, you were born.
It was 9 years ago...at 655am.
at 1200midnight, my h/p alerts me of your birthday and i softly wished
you "happy birthday, i love you so much, you are the best thing happened
in my life".
now that you are gone...
memories,,,
son, i held you in my arms for only 8years and 9months
13september 2007 = 1Ramadhan 1428H, you left me.
we'd just came back from our surau after our tarawih prayers.
so many times i dream of you...i hugged you, held you tightly, kissed and smelled,
but when i'm awake, you are not there.
it wasn't easy letting you go...it wasn't easy moving on.
my life stops there.
i still see you as an 8year old.
when you turn 9 today...
how do you look today...
what are the words will you say to me today...
where do we celebrate your birthday today...
do you have the voice that i'm used to hear...
there are so many questions running, and i don't have a clue.
i still bear some regret for the things that i couldn't fulfill
or that i delayed it.
you wanted to see the dragon dance when we were going home after
your taekwondo
i remembered saying "they haven't started, let's go home and we come back later"
at home, you had your ice-cream and sometime later you gave me a card
.........
i laughed at what was written, and taking it for granted
and whenever i see any such performance, that memory comes back.
when you asked me to take you to the "eye of malaysia", i said "later",
"next time" or "we go during school holidays" or "we go together with your sister".
doesn't my heart breaks whenever i passed by that area?
Saturday, December 8, 2007
her notes
saturday 28Zulkaedah 1428H = 8dec 2007 @ 1223noon
her sms dated : 07.02.2005 @ 0020hrs
..."HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 DEAR MUMMY. fr royal town family
(enjoy ur final "3")
tranquerrah "she and her loving family wished me birthday...it was a pictured message"
her notes
saturday 28Zulkaedah = 8dec 2007 @ 1213noon
instantly i posted her my request of recipe for this simple dish".
tranquerrah "i was lonely, and very alone. told her of my feelings before her
flight back to KUL from jeddah"
her sms dated : 26.01.2005 at 0509hrs
..."bwg putih & lengkuas d hiris nipis, masuk air, asm keping& ikan- kmbung, masak atas api kcl lama pun tak pe& grm,aji ckp rasa. For beef/tulang, addbwg merah tapi kn krg dr awg putih, rmph ratus.campak sikit cili api atau cili merah ptomg mcm kuah pindang. btw,thanx for my digest bks."tranquerrah "i remembered craving for her signature dish, that midnight.
instantly i posted her my request of recipe for this simple dish".
her sms dated : 27.01.2006 at 10.02hrs
..."Sebak rasa tatap sms u. Plz do not despair. C u wen i c u. Nw at Jeddah, 5am
arvd at 2.30am. take car love."
tranquerrah "i was lonely, and very alone. told her of my feelings before her
flight back to KUL from jeddah"
Monday, December 3, 2007
marrakech
mon 23Zulkaedah 1428H @ 1215hrs
marrakech...a place in morocco, was featured on the discovery travel
channel on the cable tv last weekend.
watched it first, by accident while changing the channels during advert.
didnt pay much attention
and again, i saw it on sunday night and watched it till end.
...like the design of their houses, by the hill-slopes
i think i like the food too.
yes the showcase titled as "bizarre food"
want to go there...
marrakech...a place in morocco, was featured on the discovery travel
channel on the cable tv last weekend.
watched it first, by accident while changing the channels during advert.
didnt pay much attention
and again, i saw it on sunday night and watched it till end.
...like the design of their houses, by the hill-slopes
i think i like the food too.
yes the showcase titled as "bizarre food"
want to go there...
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